Sunday, 27 May 2018

Clutter is back!


My life is great unless I start complaining. Or to be more fair, unless others start complaining around me. It is the ones who are the closest family that are capable of riling me up. I understand completely that I have not developed myself completely in terms of financial independence.

I have failed twice in my career and this is my third time. What will happen will have to happen. At least I will say I tried my best. I will not go back and wonder what I could have done. I have my external limitations that I am working on but that does not make me weak or a failure. That makes me stronger and brighter each day. Let life as it has to.

I will face the waves even if it is alone and stay sane! :D

Monday, 18 September 2017

                                                     

                                                "BEING YOURSELF"


What does this mean? I have always wondered. When people meet me and get to know me, they have always told- Never ever change. Then I start wondering- Change is inevitable. Why does everyone conclude that being yourself means not changing. I can change but be myself at the same time.  My inner desires want me to explore whatever is around me, sometimes making me way too liberal for the society to handle. I am not scared of setting myself lose, its the society I am scared of. Will I be accepted or not? Then how in the world can I be fully me. How can I be myself? There is always a line I have to draw where I can be myself.
As the blog says I am a clutter spot and I like the chaos in my head. Never ever settling for a fixed idea is what I like to believe in. Maybe that's what I am by nature and thought.
So here is what I have to say about me being myself-

I am just another human being, trying to find myself completely yet I do know the fact that I am no special than the rest. So that helps me break the ego that builds with finding myself. Yet I do believe we all have something unique and pure to give to others and the earth which brings joy. I know that I love talking, listening, meeting new people who talk with a sparkle in their eyes, the people who share a laugh with me, the people who tell me their deepest stories, the people who enjoy listening me talk whatever I wish to without strong judgements. This brings me immense joy and that is how I think of myself giving and taking from the earth. This is what makes me who I am. Probably there are humans like me but everybody is slightly different and unique. The truth I need to understand is that I cannot make everybody happy, and in all probability I could hurt someone who is not open to communicate.

My father had asked me once to write down the values I believed in and to follow them. The values I still stick to are authenticity, sensibility, honesty, compassion, love, respect for myself and others, learning, independence and freedom and spirituality. These are my only rules that I follow. The rest is not my business to think of. And this is how I keep myself the way I am (sane).

It is important to revisit one's values again and again. It is also important to know one's core essence again and again. The reason to revisit is because we are constantly bombarded by external influences, be it media, people around us or work. It is easy to get swayed and lose one's balance, which I consider many people to have had.

So it's time for you to think now...what do you so strongly believe in and are ready to stand for it? That makes your values. And what is your sole purpose in life- the thing you do on an everyday basis that makes you happy to the core!

Au Revoir. Until next time!

Wednesday, 17 April 2013


Beauty- overrated? Well yeah i believe so. 
I really don’t know how to describe this. I have been trying to observe and analyzing for the last few days. So here’s what i compiled

Realisation 1: Beauty is whatever pleases your eyes. So nature is beautiful for all. Your closed ones are beautiful.

Realisation 2: Elegance is beauty. Elegance pleases. Hence proved.

Realisation 3: Maintaining yourself well keeps you beautiful no matter about your God gifted looks.

Realisation 4: People are biased on judging beauty due to a lot of external influences.

Realisation 5: Natural look is the most beautiful. Same applies on being natural, being yourself.

Realisation 6: There is something about healthy human skin and healthy body that is beautiful

Realisation 7: Beauty within also pleases

Realisation 8: Smile enhances beauty

Realisation 9: People beautiful in pictures may not be so in real and vice-versa

Realisation 10: Beauty gives confidence and you love yourself more once you realise all this and believe that you are beautiful. In fact everyone should believe so.
The list is still to add on to more realisations.

Wednesday, 26 September 2012

HAIL THE MIGHTY HILLS


Date and Duration of travel- 16/3/12 to 18/3/12= 2days and 3 nights
Mode of travel- By road 
                          
16/3/ 2012 (6 pm) After a frustratingly long wait for the bus caught up in an election rally,we finally boarded our minibus. Thrilled with the anticipation of the drive that lay ahead and fuelled with a fresh supply of junk food, everyone was ready to go.
We had learnt some new Tamil words like Vanga, Sapidunga out of curiosity and most importantly for primary survival if by any chance any of us is in a SOS situation.
Upbeat music, an enjoyable game of charades and antakshri didn’t allow us to notice that we had reached Puttur, the Chocolate City, which gave us a welcoming treat of  a decent dinner.
We passed The Bandipur national park and  the Mudumalai national park, the tiger reserve.  A gush of nostalgia passed as happy childhood memories came back as we stood in the bus pointing at anything that we could make out like excited little kids- peacocks, wild boars, deers and elephants

 17/3/2012
9 hours later we found ourselves at the border post of Ooty. We were greeted by the most breathtaking view of a meadow with grazing horses, this sight having been deeply embedded in my diary called memories.

On reaching the main city, we procured the services of a local guide, who also helped us locate our accommodation at a well furnished  homestay for 1 night, having 5 rooms and 1 hall.
After  refreshments and a filling brunch at a restaurant, we left for the Doddabetta peak, the tallest peak in Ooty. Here we tasted the most exquisite lemon tea costing 7 bucks.   
The next thing I remember very vividly is how I had very unpretentiously gone to throw my cup of tea at the Doddabetta and how I had to chase behind the bus with all thoughts running in my head as the future bond I would have had to make with Ooty as my fellow 18 friends had forgotten of my existence and left me stranded there!

Then we reached the Tea Factory,making the finest tea. We saw the entire processing on an elevated platform, after which we were given complementery  cups of nilgiri tea and suddenly there was the most blissful,fragrant aroma around. Board directions brought us to the much awaited chocolate shops. The peculiarity was that the chocolates were home made ranged from rs. 50 to rs. 100 and tasted something very different from the everyday packed chocolates that I usually drool for,so this definitely should not be missed. After buying packs of them, there were other little shops that we became aware of, selling fragrant tea and herbal oils known for their own medicinal values.
A modest shopping and a little walk brought us to the Botanical Garden and the Flower Garden. The botanical garden was built in 1847 over 55 acres, having an abundant number of tree species. In the gardens we found an eye catching semi-oval architecture of the Toda huts, the Todas being the native tribes that originally dwelled in Ooty.
Then we left for the Wax World, having life size statues displayed in a 142 year old bungalow.

Later we were supposed to go to the pykara lake but it was too late and we decided to ride horses! A very new enthralling experience for the ones who never got the chance to ride it.
The thread Garden branded to be the first of its kind in the world . The attraction behind it was, that it was an innovative indoor display of flowers, plants and lawns fabricated entirely from thread, canvas and wire and completely hand made.

18/3/2012
Next morning , we had to get up and drag the lazy ones out of bed to be able to catch the toy train called the Mettupalayam – Udagamandalam passenger train. This is one of the seven toy trains of India and is otherwise well known as the “Chaiyya Chaiyya” train from the film “Dil Se” which was shot on its rooftop. The stops had catchy names like Lovedale and Wellington which made me think whether I was still in India or not.

The Ooty lake was where we did boat paddling costing  100rs per head,trying to race, holding on to the other boat to slow them down.It was quite relaxing but later weared the ones who were paddling for an hour.
If that wasn’t enough we went to the games arcade. But before that we rejuvenated ourselves with glasses of fresh sugarcane juice. There were the Bumper Cars, the Trot, the breaking dance and most exciting of all was the mechanical bull ride, which almost everyone tried or uhm, wished to.
Then we had cotton candies which I had longed for so long.

Thoroughly exhausted but nostalgic as our time to leave drew closer, we stopped at a restaurant for one last meal after which we set off  on yet another long drive ahead of us peppered with stops at picturesque locations for those last few pictures, games and impromptu disco sessions and ghost stories .This weekend was one I would never be able to forget.

Sunday, 8 July 2012

A sad revelation


Yesterday, practically today at 4 in the morning (hey come on it's a weekend!) as I was surfing the net I landed on the WHO website of the prevalence of female genital mutilation. Initially it sounded ridiculous to me reading about it but later as I read the whole article I was shocked to see there were figures of the mutilations accounting to about some 140 million girls having had undergone this , especially in the African and Asian continents. An average of about 4 girls a minute continue to be mutilated.

To add to this misery the age group affected are the children. It is a very painful procedure and can have immediate effects like infection, bleeding profusely leading to shock and death.It can also lead to tetanus, Hepatitis and the fearsome HIV. But most importantly when these kids survive to grow into mature, oppressed adults they have problems related to pregnancy and other gynaecological problems.

Although I do not validate male circumcision too, but in comparison this is extremely painful.

One of the various reasons given for this very atrocious act is culture. Some people believe that the culture needs to be kept alive and the so called educated people also tend to promote it. Others believe that it keeps the female from getting sexually aroused which is considered horrendous for a girl, well unlike a male! It ensures  pre-marital virginity and inhibits extramarital sex because it reduces women's libido. And she becomes ‘clean’. Some link it to religion although no religious text says anything in particular about it.

OH how I wish I could be this tiny little worm who could get into these people’s brains and change the misplaced screws within! RELIGION IS ALWAYS AN EXCUSE FOR HOW PEOPLE BEHAVE and is very sad.

Being children it does not mean you can harm them. This is a human rights violation.

I strongly believe that a universal judicial system is required for such acts. Educating about it in places where it is practiced from an early age would also be helpful.

Au Revoir.

Saturday, 7 July 2012

the beginning


This is a totally new concept to me. Blogging. Not writing. Well, yes to tell the truth I am not a great writer either. I had this totally new wish to blog because maybe initially it seemed ‘cool’ as almost everyone I know did it or does it and later on with some wisdom I realized it is a good idea to just let go of the ‘clutter’ of ideas and type them down so that it’s easy for me to neatly understand myself. Besides it is relaxing too. And not many days back a good friend of mine showed me her blog and this pumped me even more and lo here I am!
It’s a Saturday, a day I hail after a week long of college hours which exhausts my body and drains my soul. So I can sit and think of the good and the bad going on in the world. Not that I am a revolutionary but I like to understand the complexities of human nature. Human nature is a very interesting topic that draws me and once I start reading on it, it seems near to impossible to stop myself from going further about more.
 Being the beginning, i will let it be short and sweet.

Au Revoir :)